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Friday, December 6, 2013

Favorite Modes of Asphyxiation

Actually, I like most methods of breathplay pretty equally.  With the exception of drowning.  Still working on that.  Anyway, if you have read previous blogs of mine then you would know I had to put breathplay on hold for awhile due to medical reasons.  Having said that, pretty recently, I got a good report and while I won't be passing out anytime soon, some, limited forms of breathplay will be allowed.  Here's my favorites methods, going from what I like to what I like the most:


Choking:





Choking is very personal to me.  Hands around my neck feel great, but seem to feel like my private space is being invaded.  Which is fine during rape play;  that is kinda the point.  It's rougher than other forms, but defintily personal.


Strangling:







Cord, belt, scarf...doesn't matter.  Strangling is a good and slow way to prolong a scene and is easier on the person doing the strangling.  There might be some serious bruising on the neck, but it's a good way to keep control during a scene.  I love to make those strangling sounds and I like tight things on my neck anyway!


Bagging:





My go-to for breathplay.  Easy to do, can be hands-free, and quite frankly it heightens the panic factor for me.  Especially as I go into orgasm.  Wheee!


Hanging:






I've only done it a few times; very dangerous and should only be done with a professional.  But the rush is good, tongue swelling in my mouth, struggling in the air for air....very intense!

So, just a quickie post today.  About a few things I like.  :)




Sunday, November 24, 2013

A little anime violence for ya!


From the anime called Soul Eater.  The action starts with her getting wrapped up in strips of cloth and tossed around some.  The action starts around 2:10 in the clip (if you want to skip the beginning of the clip) and ends with her getting strangled. 

Friday, October 25, 2013

Life Updates

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Saturday, October 19, 2013

Game Day Bet for Sunday!



Ok, so my Ravens have had better seasons at this point (3-3)...but they won't lose to the Steelers! I mean really...1- 4? Bwa-ha-ha-ha!

So, as usual, on October 20th, Sunday, at 4:25pm, my bet is that the Ravens win over the Steelers. And since I've made the bet, I have to say what will happen should the Ravens lose. ...*snicker*... So, if should lose the bet...doubt it...I will do the following....

A nice hogtie, plugged with an anal plug, nipple clamps, vibed and not allowed to be let go until I've had at least three orgasms. Oh, and nice, big ballgag in my mouth!

Speaking of which...that's currently in my mouth....

Mmmmpphh!

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Music for this entry:


Mother, Mother, “The Sticks”, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rOIlBbDxx2c 


Iggy Pop, “The Passenger”, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLhN__oEHaw





Friday, September 13, 2013

Mutual Destruction (short story)




We dance closely. My arms are around your neck, face in your neck. Naked against your clothed body. Music playing softly, swaying and softly grinding in a sinuous circle, around and around.

You smell good. Clean. Crisp. Lovely and dangerous. Your chaos tightly controlled in your body and hands, that rest in the small of my back. Tensing and waiting. Waiting for me.

I press my lips ever so gently on your neck, right above the vein. Can feel your pulse quickening, jumping like a live wire, you pull me even closer.

I sigh, knowing that I'm the only only one that can free you, make the lust overcome you, overflow and drown you. You need me to help you release. I want it as well. I want you to overpower me, but not yet. Not yet.

I kiss your neck again, pressing my lips harder, lingering, feeling you shudder, your whole body wanting to react to me, to rip me apart.

Not yet. Not yet.

I lick your neck. My small, pink tongue coming from between my teeth, the lips of my small mouth. Licking your neck, with just the point of my tongue Just a flick. Then another. A low moan escapes you.

Not yet. Not yet.

We stop moving in circles, just swaying. My arms curl under yours, coming up your back, hands pulling on your shoulders, standing on my tip toes. Locking onto your eyes, I start under your chin, gliding my tongue up and over, pulling away from lips at the last moment. Anger and lust, you're getting there.

Not yet. Not yet.

We stop dancing. I pull my arms away. Staring into your eyes, a languid lick of my lips. I step back. I take another step, my finger finds its way to my mouth, I kiss it. I stretch my arm to you and place my finger on your lips. I let it slide away as I turn away. I think you want to hurt me now. To punish me.

If you want me darling, if you truly want me, you have to stop me. If you want me, then come to me. Now, darling, now.

You grab my arm, you twist and pull me to you. You wrench my arm into the small of my back. You make me gasp. You got my signal. You can be free, darling. Flow over me, let it out, lust desire and everything inside.

As I'm forced against your body, I try to push back. I'm rewarded with a low growl of need. I know, darling, I know. But you have to do more to win me over. To take me over.

Your hand grabs my short, brown hair and you pull, so hard. You jerk my head back, a small noise comes from me and I see that wonderful and savage smile you have sometimes. My neck is exposed, my lips are slightly parted, I'm panting.

You lightly kiss my neck. You're restraining yourself and that just won't do darling. I want you to loose it. Loose it to me, everything, darling. Everything.

Your mouth opens just below my chin, I feel your teeth. You want to bite. You want to mark me. I close my eyes. Good, darling, mark me, for everyone to see.

You let go of my arm and use both hands to hold my head. Our eyes lock. Your hands ball into fists in my hair. Your reason is slipping, giving way to your need, your lust. Bring it darling, bring it to me.

You let me go. Abruptly. Glaring at me. I turn. I look over my bare shoulder. Breathing heavily you run your hands through your hair.

I stand still as you as swipe the cuffs off the table. You don't even have to ask, demand or order, I just do it. I cross my wrists behind me. Waiting. But hurry, darling. Do hurry. I only have so much patience.

The cuffs are cold. In a few short clicks, I'm restrained. You place your hands on my shoulders. You slowly turn me around. Your hands go over the small frame of my shoulders, they come together on my neck, I lift my chin.

They move up my neck, closing my eyes, I can feel your fingers in my hair. And with noise of desperation, you kiss me.

Your kiss is powerful. I let myself lean against your body. Engulfed. I stop breathing. Content to die by your kiss. I love it.

I let your power come into my body. I let you take me over. Spill into me darling, all your love, all your hate, everything, give it to me. Give it all to me.

Hurt me. Destroy me. Dominate me. Make me kneel, make me grovel. Make me kiss you in self-destruction forever. Let go, darling, oh please let it go.

The black, silk scarf comes out of your pocket. I asked you for it. I wanted something of yours in my mouth. Something I can have and taste, love and hate when you render me helpless, when you take away my voice.

You hesitate. You stop right as the scarf gets to my mouth. I can see the last bit of control start to finally slip away. Your eyes are unsure. So I bring you back to where I want you.

I say the one thing you want to hear, the simple statement that lets you loose control and wreak havoc on me, to make war on me, to exhaust yourself on me. The need, the sad and hurtful need is in your eyes and I want it to go away. I have my own needs and hurts and desires.

So I simply give you the permission you need. It isn't about love. Just a letting go. So I just say it for you. Let you give way to the things that give you passion, lust and power. All the things I crave and want, an addiction that I like.

I speak softly, almost in a whisper. The need shaking in your hands. You hear me, finally. Oh darling, it's ok, I want you to let it all go, I need you to do it darling.

“Destroy me.”


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A couple of songs from tonight.


Yoko Kanno, “Butterfly


Yasushi Ishii - Logos naki World

Part Six of Unwillingly seduced is coming soon!

Mmmmpphh!


Dinner (short story)



You said nothing when you tied my wrists behind me at the table. Our fellow diners and the waiters silent, standing or sitting still as you finished the knot.
White rope on my black kid gloves. I didn't try to struggle. I wasn't embarrassed when everything went silent when you pulled the rope out of your pocket, kneeling next to me. Slowly tying me. You wanted everyone to see.
My legs are crossed under the satin dress. You carefully took off my heels and placed them on the table as you told the waiter what I would be having to drink tonight; a glass of Colores Del Sol malbec.
I smiled when you pulled the ballgag from your coat pocket. Small ball, you plan for me to wear it while you eat your dinner. You are going to make me watch you, make me be watched by everyone else. All this attention just for me.
My wine comes. You hold the gag by the straps and dip the ball into the wine, let it sit for a moment. You slowly bring it up, shake it a little.
You stand behind me and hold the gag up to me, as if you were putting a necklace around my neck. The ball slips into my eager mouth, the straps tighten, not too much and the ball sits over my tongue almost like forbidden candy, the boldness of the malbec filling my mouth.
I gaze at you as you eat. Waiting patiently. The only sound is the band, playing a nice and seductive tune.
I'm hoping you have a leash for my dessert....
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Tonight's (this morning's) song is "Blue Tone" by Yoko Kanno. [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ouNhWmT_bZg]
Gentle and loving gagged kisses for all...mmmpphh.....

Friday, September 6, 2013

Friday, August 30, 2013

Moving!!!

So, after spending a lot of time in this apartment in Baltimore, where I would bind and gag myself in front of an unlocked door, announcing it to the world to see, if by chance, someone would find me in such a state...I am moving on....I've been found while doing my alleywalk and kidnapped!


I am writing this under duress as I have been kidnapped, bound and gagged and used as a sexual toy for my new owner.  I now live in a dungeon to pleasure him, his friends and his pet tentacle monster for the rest of my life.

Actually, just moving to a new apartment.

I'm excited by the move.  I'll still be in Baltimore.  Even the same neighborhood.  But a different apartment.   Oooohhh, ahhhhh!!!!

The new place will be smaller, but has some nice features.  Like, the bedroom and bathroom doesn't share a wall with a neighbor (I can really scream my orgasms into the gag now).  Security is about the same, the view is a little bit different, my balcony will be facing north instead of downtown.  And it's higher up than before.  Better kitchen.

So, in a few short weeks, all of those clues you may have amassed as to where I live...will almost all be useless.  Almost all of them.  Almost.

Oh, and I did an alleywalk today.  here's the cut and paste from my fetlife account about it:

Ok, so had a nice little alleywalk today. Made my way to an alley nearby and did my little walk.
Recap: black skirt to my knees, hose, black heels, no panties, black shoulder length wig, white, long sleeved blouse. ALso wore a black tie and a well-used ball gag. See the pictures in my pics section for the gear and where I walked. :)
It was rush hour when I decided upon this alley, so someone could have seen me on either side of the alley, or if someone looked from their windows.
Pulled metal cuffs and gag from my purse, inserted gag, stretching my mouth. Put on my cuffs, wrists behind me.
I walked from south to north and then back. I held my pursed in my cuffed hands behind me. I walked nice and slow. Upon coming back down the alley, I started drooling. It got on my shirt and made a little bit of a mess.
No one drove down the alley (too bad, I guess), but was still excited all the same. I mean, not only if someone caught me bound and gagged in public, what if they found out that I was wasn't wearing panties?
Of course, had I been kidnapped at that stage, my captor(s) would have been appreciative enough to cut away my hose with a knife...btw, a new hot fantasy for me...
Came back home (unbound and ungagged), quickly put the gag and cuffs back on and struggled on my bed before I grabbed the hitachi and started playing with myself...
Now, I'm just a hot mess. mmmmpphh!



Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Post Otakon...



To answer your question:  no, I did not get kidnapped.

:(

For a little while I thought there was a guy dressed up as Boba Fet stalking me (how ironic would *that* have been), but he just wanted a picture taken with me.  And I thought there was a girl dressed up as Rosario who might've been after me...but that may have been wishful thinking.

Speaking of wishful thinking, there was a meremaid who was totally hot and I was going to hit on her until her boyfriend picked her up (literally) and walked off with her.  And then there was the Ewok girl (see pic below)....mmmmmm.....but nothing happened.  Oh, there was also that cute Crazy 88, he had a nice looking...sword.

Made friends.  Saw some cute people.  No hook ups this year, however.  :(  Still had a great time though!  *Really* enjoyed the Yoko Kanno concert! [ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v-TAxm00jOg].  Actually that link isn't the concert but from one in the past, she's the one in red.  I've been crushing on her for a couple of years now...

So no kidnapping.  Not trussed up and thrown into the trunk of a car and driven to AngelDarling to be her little toy...sigh...so sad....

Anyway, as long as there is an Otakon there will be a kidnap opportunity!  So mebbe next time.

Mmmmmpphh!

The Ewok girl:




Thursday, August 8, 2013

Otakon: Annual Kidnap Suzy Opportunity!



The Annual Suzy Kidnap Opportunity at Otakon has arrived!

And the first ever outfit choice by you guys for this event!

For those new to this little game, it's basically one of the few times out of the year where I am in a fixed location for longer than 3 hours and you have a realistic chance of actually meeting me in the flesh! But there are rules you *have* to follow!

1. To “kidnap” me, you will be given descriptions of what I will look like on each of the three days of the convention...pre-registration doesn't count. I'll be in a line, unable to escape!

  1. Should you find me, you need to make a confirmation. This is to make you sure you actually find *me* and not frighten some poor girl...resulting in your arrest. I will provide the key phrase you *must* say to me and I will give you the confirmation. It *must* be exactly as I write down. Again this is for everyone's protection.

  1. Ok, I haven't mentioned this part before because I didn't want to scare people off, and he hasn't been to all the Otakons with me before but he will be here this year. Upon confirmation, I call Blue, aka Bluemoon. He's my “heavy”. He gets to meet you before anything else happens and gives me the OK to continue with you. And I will be checking in with him.

  1. What does “kidnapping” me actually mean? What it means is that once I give you the confirmation...the first thing you get to do is to buy me Pocky! Second, when time permits (there may be things I want to see, in that case you have to come with me!), we'll have a drink together, soda or booze, and talk. And if things go well....well, we'll see. :)

Got it? Great! Now, for your hints!

Friday – I always wear an ao dai, but I'm changing it up this year with a red shanghai dress. It will be high-necked with a single-buckle button, short sleeved and the skirt portion comes ust above my knees. My hair is hsort right now, so no decorative hair pieces, but I will be wearing an ankh on my left wrist.

Saturday – Cosplaying! This is the outfit I will wearing chosen by you guys! Ok, I had single votes that resulted in a tie...so I chose one based on the fact that the person who chose it had fun comments directed at her. So the character I will be cosplayng will be...Nagisa Aoi from Strawberry Panic! Google this character to see the description. *WARNING*: other girls will be cosplaying as her. Look for the ankh on my left wrist! Oh, and a wig will be involved....   Here's a pic:



Sunday – Black, button down, silk shirt, short sleeved and a thin, red tie. Blue jeans tucked into black boots with heels, ankh on the left wrist again, and sunglasses. Oh, and a leather collar with a single silver ring in front. Very red lipstick. If you get me on this day, you can actually leash me if you like....

Ok, now you know what I will look like, so here's what *you* need to say to me if you think you've found me:

*Do you think anyone would eat sushi if it had scrapple in it?*

The confirmation code from me *has* to be this:

*Only those who go to the Rappa Scrapple factory.*

Got it? Good! The last thing anyone wants is to be put on CNN and described as a sex fiend....

Now, on Fetlife, there has been some talk about a reward if someone kidnaps me and brings me to AngelDarling. I have absolutely no problem with this....but you may end up kneeling next to me as we look up to her and wonder just exactly what orifice she is going to stick that dildo into...dunno about you all but I'm sure I'll enjoy it!

So, you all know the drill for this upcoming Friday thru Sunday (9th thru the 11th)! So far, I haven't been “kidnapped”. I think a couple people have come close, but not quite! In the meantime, I'm slapping in a ballgag, putting on the cuffs, getting on the couch with my vibe while an Ashlee Rene movie is playing!

Good luck this weekend!


Mmmmpphh!

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

A Little Poll for You Concerning Kidnapping Me at Otakon



Every year I go to Otakon here in Baltimore [www.otakon.com]. It will last from August 9th 9am to August 11th, 3pm or so.
During this time I am in just this one place for the entire day and into the night so I make a "kidnap" game out of every year. basically, I wear a certain outfit each day and I have a phrase you have to say exactly and if you find me (no one ever has yet) you get to "kidnap" me. Late Tuesday night, I will post what the phrase is and what I will be wearing and the rules of the game. For those of you who know me know that this is the best "kidnap opportunity" to be successful at!
But, you get to determine this year, what I wear. While I do dress up in vague anime/asian costumes...I rarely cosplay a character...and this year you get to pick what character it is!!!
Rules are simple: the character with the majority vote wins. And no, you cannot inject or request a character! Ok, choose from one of the following:
Kiyone Makibi (Tenchi Muyo)
Fujiko Miine (Lupin the 3rd)
Akemi (Legend of the Overfiend)
Ennis (Baccano)
Tachi (Nana x Karou)
Nagisa Aoi (Strawberry Panic)
All but two will involve a wig of some sort. Detailed costumes are required for 3, mebbe 4, but I already have them from other events.
So, majority vote wins, and voting ends at 11:59pm evening of the 7th! Winner and the rest of the Otakon "kidnap opportunity" stuff will be posted after that at some point!
Mmmmpphh!
P.S. Just google the characters, you will get an idea of waht they look like!

Monday, July 22, 2013

Strangled!

I'm pretty sure I haven't posted this one yet, but if I have, my apologies.  Otherwise enjoy watching poor me getting gagged and strangled!


Oh, and it was done BEFORE I went to the hospital!


Sunday, July 21, 2013

It's 4am.....

And I need to be molested by a lesbian...




What do you think?


Friday, January 11, 2013

Finally: Bagged & Hung!

Between work, the holidays (meaning more work) and getting the plague...I am long overdue to post this video!  I apologize, but I think I paid for it by doing this little video...

The noose cinched the bag over my head.  Normally, the noose has a bit of space at the knot, which enables me to get pulled up for longer periods of time.  This time, the air ran out quick and I actually panicked!  BTW, I don't even remember saying a a gagged, "Fuck!" at the end!

Ok, here's the video!


And as a bonus...